Dear Princeton Faculty:

Welcome to my portfolio!

Below you will find information, a score, an excerpted recording, and a full recording for three projects (in order of viewing) plus an extra portfolio reel to demonstrate the scope of my work.

Following my portfolio, I have included my C.V., Personal Statement, Supplemental Essay, and Writing Sample.

Two of the excerpted recordings are 5’ and one of them is 2’, totaling 12’ in total.

If you have less time than that, I would recommend viewing from 03:10- 14:45 of bruises; yellow, green, and purple.

bruises; yellow, green, and purple

concerto for steinway spirio player piano, video, and orchestra

10-14 days after a trauma, a bruise will become a faint brownish yellow; at 5-10 days, it will most likely be a greenish color; and in the first few days, it will be its
distinctive shade of purple.

In bruises; yellow, green, and purple, the world’s first concerto – or really anticoncerto – for Spirio Player Piano, the orchestra similarly attempts to trace the origin wound
of its bruises
, while the cyborg soloist battles two inner forces, the nakedly human (Kate) and the impossibly machine (the Spirio), a tangled mess of wire tendons and
cable arteries.

Due to the limitations of the Spirio as an instrument, the majority of its material needed to stay on the keyboard, which resulted in the use of strangely classicist idioms in an obsessive loop of two materials, a harmonized chorale melody and 2nd theme, in a series of uncompromising algorithms. Yellow is an introduction scored for orchestra alone, dramatic giant footfalls and their shuddering echoes a premonition of the Spirio’s clangorous pedal. Green, the concerto proper, is combinations and variations of different types of clusters that are formed by layering the chorale and its second theme. And Purple is a duet for the piano and video, one deaf and the other mute, conversing in the language of loneliness. The human soloist appears for the first time, silently imprisoned in a pixelated uncanny valley.

Ultimately, invisible wounds are the hardest to heal because they are the least likely to be believed. We invented machines to try to capture and record these inner traumas, manifesting them as scratches on the surface of time itself. We birthed the utopian immortality of recorded media, desperate wizards using our little devices to reanimate the sick, resurrect the dead, and preserve the living, in the face of the world’s continuously unfathomable suffering.

The machine at the center of this piece, like Mary Shelley’s Frankenstein, is monstrous but deeply sympathetic. Absence is at the center of this work, but not necessarily loss, just as a bruised mind is not by default a broken one.

Jeffrey Milarsky, Katelyn Bouska, Curtis Symphony Orchestra

As the visual element is not adequately captured in this video recording, please consider familiarizing yourself with its element by viewing a short clip of the 3rd movement (perhaps 16:48)

YOU MaY RESUME BREATHING

opera theater scene from Patience, for mezzo-soprano, electronics, modular synthesizer, and ensemble

This is an abstract opera scene, from a larger upcoming project with Scandinavian soprano Christina Herresthal, in which an unnamed female patient waiting in an MRI machine experiences dehumanization, depersonalization, and self-hatred to the extent that she starts to resonate with the most distant object in the galaxy, a black hole, in mutual futility.

For my entire time at Curtis, I have been thinking and writing about the concept of the cyborg and the uncanny valley; something possessing the appearance of the human being but lacking what makes a person, a lack filled by machinery and automation, something which came to the foreground of my mind viscerally when I had a piece of medical equipment sewn into my body to keep me alive.

Here are some things that the Patient might be trying to say in her wordless black hole/MRI machine duet:

“Every time we think we know pain, life decides to remind us of our ignorance.”

“My scars tell my story but they are mute and you are blind.”

“Forgetting is a very different type of suffering than not wanting to remember.” “Life is only worth living if you still recognize yourself when you have nothing left.”

“A problem becomes an obstacle when it is insurmountable by means within the human grasp.”

“One is only a survivor if one has the guilt to prove it.”

Do not go gentle into that good night. Rage, rage against the dying of the light. -Dylan Thomas”

5 minute excerpt from You May Resume Breathing

Alexander Erlich-Herzog, bass clarinet; Tae McCloughlin, percussion; Hannah Klein, mezzo-soprano; Maya Miro Johnson, electronics, Thomas Patteson, modular synthesizer, Oliver Talukder, oboe, Toby Vigneau, double bass

Violin Concerto

ii. sire(n)

concerto for acoustic violin and cyborg chorus (theremin, ondes martenot or synthesizer, organ)

This piece is maybe the most classical in nature that I’ve written in a really long time, which is ironic, given the instrumentation. But at its heart, it really is functionally and in practice a movement of a violin concerto, with virtuosity, lyricism, and quirk.

This project began last spring, when Emma (my lovely soloist) and I were catching up after her first year at Yale; she mentioned she was performing and recording a lot of George Antheil, and I responded that it was a funny coincidence, because I had just written a concerto for player piano. We started talking about our shared interest in the futurism movement that defined the era of early electronic and automated music, and also our reservations about how closely connected to violent impulses, misogyny, and fascism that movement was. Today, over a hundred years later, we are once again thinking about the same things – not that we ever stopped – this time, with concerns about the ethical and utilitarian development of artificial intelligence. With the same kinds of men running the world that did in Antheil’s time, there is much to be worried about. And so we were wondering if there was an alternate approach, a humanist futurism, a feminist futurism, a queer futurism, that could push the same boundaries that men like Antheil did without causing as much destruction. And, in fact, we already had an example. Hedy Lamarr, a Jewish refugee from Austria exploited and monetized by Hollywood, invented broad spectrum frequency hopping using Antheil’s player piano systems, a technology, though at first maligned, which now forms the basis of Wifi and GPS and a host of other essential tools. The inventor has so often been depicted as a masculine figure, a creator god, a father. But Hedy showed us that s/She could be a carer, a mother, a teacher, a grower – these are stereotypically feminine ideals, but perhaps a bit of matriarchy is what is needed when confronting the creation of new, conscious life.

This movement in particular asks the question: if – or when – AI becomes sentient, will it be an omnipotent child? Will it be a baby? Will it need a mother, a creator deity, a teacher, a carer, a model, a guardian? Will it need to be nurtured and taught? Will it wonder why it was created, what consciousness means, what’s the meaning of a good life? Will it ask all the same questions we humans do ever since we were children – what does it mean to be here? This piece is figuratively a lullaby that a newly conscious AI child is singing to itself, calling out for its mother.

2’ Excerpt from II. sire(n)

Piece begins at 3:24. Emma Carina Meinrenken, violin; Leigha Amick, synthesizer; Isabella Isza Wu, organ; Maya Miro Johnson, theremin and electronics

Supplemental Materials

Website links to performance art duo ~ [pronounced two] and opera theater project Patience:

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